SUDEP

I was scared to sleep, didn't know if I'd wake up, dead... Scared overall...

SUDEP- Sudden Unexpected Death in Epliesy

One day I could have a seizure and not wake up. People ask, "why do you have so much energy". I know for a fact the epilepsy brings it and it has no where to go, so I just feel it everywhere. Since I've had epilepsy I've noticed that I move fast, and too some people it may be too fast. I feel it in my legs, arms, heart... brain, Again, people ask me "why are you moving so fast?" or sometimes just seems annoyed, but it's nothing I can control.

I won't go into detail, but when I was 17 I fell off a truck, going down a hill. It started my seziures but the stress I bring to myself doesn't help. AT ALL! I can really feel when one it's coming upon me when I'm stressing about something. I use ALWAYS stress.

I'm going to live this life without a worry from now on. I'm a firm believer in things happen for a reason. Maybe I worried too much before, but now I definitely won't let stress or anybody else's opinions run my life.

Lately, I see the joke in almost everything. I love my life too much to let something or somebody else end it! I want to be able to say, I loved my life. I want to say "nobody ran this life but me". 😎